the long lost me

it is quite some time that i didn't give it an update.
i thought i can keep it alive until the day that i really don't want to write
in fact i still want to be a writer but i lost the passion
the life treated me well
i have gone through more than enough
nothing can be considered as a big deal for me
everything is just a small matter
i think that's what he taught me
i guess i am moving on quite fast
after a long time that i told myself i love him
i realised may be the one i love isn't him
it is me myself (the one that used to love him so much)
i cheated myself
he cheated himself and me
that's life
we lied to each other
we covered our heart with thorns
when someone comes near enough
they hurt by the thorns
i miss the sheanyong that treated her friends with her true heart, without thorns
i guess i miss the sy that likes kokyee without hoping any returns